Invisible!!!!

Have you ever felt invisible? Have you ever felt like no one was listening to you, or no one cared if you were even in the room? No matter how good you look or How good you are at something it seems like it's never good enough?

I know I have. I can't even tell how long I've been feeling like this. It's been like forever. I remember when I was known for my own accomplishments but now it's seems like that I'm known as my mom's child or my sister's sister. People never take the time to know me. I always get interrupted when I speak or get a look that I don't know what I'm talking about or When I try to contact certain individuals on a social network site, they never get back with me. When they want a particular thing, you will definitely hear from them. I try not to get offended but sometimes it can be irritating. I always see certain individuals get all the love support from their peeps. It's like wow, What can I do to get that?


I was always scared to go to some extreme measures to get attention but I have thought about it. I know there have gone to some inappropriate measures to get attention. I've done some shady stuff that I'm not at all proud of, but Thank The Lord For His Mercy!!! Being Sneaky was a certain thing I knew how to do. I know how to be sneaky, cause no one was never to concerned. Tye Tribett's "Prodigal Son" : I thought do what you feel like doing, no way cares anyway. Maybe then someone will notice you.
I felt that, I felt like no one cares.

My Dad and Mom is always telling me what I need to do. I don't do nothing right? Maybe I shouldn't even be here. Maybe I should end my life or something, but If I die who would miss me? I felt that way.

Then God reminded me that He's still trying to get my attention. He want me to not feel invisible, but to stop treating Him like He's invisible, or to only want Him when He needs something. I could have slapped myself.

I was so busy trying to want people to like me and to notice me, that I never notice the one that wants to know me for me. I don't have to break my back trying to please Him, but with people especially loved ones? You better believe it.

He's the one who can help me, while other's are good to hurt me. Psalms 146:3-4

Though I have to learn to forgive other's as well as learn How to not be so offencive. Still in training for that. No one is perfect, I'm still learning and growing. I just wanted to let you know if you like invisible, you are not alone. I just want you to know to rely on God, no matter what.