2016 Olympics Games: Excel and Defeat

I've been watching the 2016 Olympic Games in Rio for the past two weeks. I thought to myself. Man,this event is the most intense two weeks I've seen in a while. I begin thinking about the everyone that competed in The Olympic Games, that these people have the greatest acommplishments and the greatest disappointments in the world or in history.

 I've seen triumphs and I've seen let downs. Almost so disappointing that oven brought me to tears. Something you've worked for, for years and when the time comes for you to make it happen you either excel or get defeated. 

 I don't know if you ever thought about this or if anyone has ever brought this to even your attention, but life can be a lot like those Olympic games. You can so hard to get your life in order or get your life together, and when you try to go for the Gold in life, you either excel or get defeated. 

 Life can be disappointing or full or achievements. You have to keep going and not give up. I remember my Pastor had a demonstration of Michael Phelps looking straight ahead and one other guy looking at him. Michael Phelps won a Gold Medal because he was focused. I know there are times where we can't help but the look at others and start comparing ourselves to them.

 Whether it's the finish line, the final score ,the goal is in front of you, that Gold Medal is in front of you. It's not try late to start over and keep going. Don't let defeat stop you from going again and winning. Michael Phelps lose a few games, but he re group and came back a winner. So why can't we do the same? Let's Win!!!!! Go U.S.A!!!!!

Falling Short!!!!

Well, yesterday was Good Friday and I went to church tonight and the Pastor made a point about how Jesus washed all of our sins and that our past was the past. For years I have beat myself up for terrible things that I've done. Feeling that I'm so unworthy, truthfully having a feeling that people secretly knew what I've done and didn't like me. I figured there were times that people didn't like me, because I wasn't anointed, appealing, interesting, educated enough. I figured that I am not memorable to certain people, either to quiet and weird, I'm not real enough, I'm not hood enough or to bougie! I guess I fall short with man, but let's be real who doesn't fall short these days? The other day I heard that a famous Gospel Singer is now divorce and dating a now well known celebrity. I didn't know he was even divorced. People had a lot the say about his life. Of course I'm not going to lie, I feel a little disappointed, but I wasn't ready to skulled Him. Also truthfully a lot of questions run through my head about the situation but I also kept thinking none of this was my business. Even before I read comments online about the situation. Truthfully, how can I speak on anyone knowing that my past was no better at all. We all fall short all of us. Falling short is apart of life. No one is perfect, so why do we expect everyone to be but us? Everyone around us has to be on their best behavior, know what we are thinking at all times (ladies, well some) don't annoy us and give us stuff from time to time. Especially in relationships. If you disappoint us, than "Off With Your Head"! When we fall short we want everyone to forgive us with the quickness. Crazy, isn't it? I know I haven't been the best of anything lately, I've certainly fell short especially with life, thinking that I couldn't put my own self together again not even allowing God to help to mend my own broken pieces. Falling short that I have so broken that God was like man and wouldn't even want to even help me. Not realizing God doesn't see me as a mess up, not like most people that I know. He sees me as cool, awesome, flawless, and "That Chick"! Some other people, but with Facebook and Instagram with all the likes and the followers. Jesus want me to just follow Him. I know it's corny but it's true!!! Happy Easter or Happy Resurrection Sunday!!!!!!!

My Soon To Be Grown Up Life!!!!!

Well, Lately on (of course on social media) where life is these days, especially on Facebook my peers have being posting about  

Engagement Rings 

 Wedding Plans, 

 The Bridal Shower Pics (actually Tied The Knot) Name Changing,

 The Sonogram Pics 

 The Belly Growing Pics

 Don't forget the Gender Revealing Pic, Of course the Baby Shower Pics, 

 The Arrival Of the baby, and Kids first day of school, etc. 

 I know I'm not engaged yet, but OMG a sista is feeing the pressure! As a semi-single woman I feel what total singles are going through listening and seeing those situations all day everyday. Don't get me wrong I am happy for them, but I wonder why don't I have that now?

 In your 30's, it seems that you have to have a great career, with marriage and a couple of kids, or the stay at home mom, with the house and cars, living the good life. I hope to have those things one day, and I pray that Eric and I will have that very soon. 

Although it's pressure when people ask me why I'm not married or have kids yet, also looking at others lives seeing that. Accusing me of not wanting that life because I'm 3 inches from 35, still living with my parents, working part time at Macy's and not having other things going on in my life, but that's private.

 I will say this I am excited to soon share my life with Eric. I'm happy with my little nephews. At least when I get tired of them we can get them right back. lol Even though I'm 34 going on 35 in March, I am in no hurry with making my soon to be grown up life, My reality!!!!!!

Life In The 30's!

I know it's been a while since my last blog, but I've been noticing a lot of changes in life. Not neccessary with me but with other people I knew or grew up with. I know none of us are kids anymore and most of us a in our Thirties Now. Yes, 30! Usually that the time to settled in your career, get married, have a couple of kids, and have that house and car you've dreamed about with you were 10 and up years of age.

I do see people become successful and some people not so much. At this age a lot sometimes became dissapponted in the ay things turned out, because we though the plan that we had in our minds that we had 10 years ago, is not the plan that we are walking out today. There had been setbacks, mishaps, mistakes, and tragities in the pass that hold us back. Even fears that control or took a toll of you in the pass that took you years to overome, and still is taking a hold a of you still to this day.

You look a others wondering why you're still single, or Why are you still living with your parents? Why do you rely pn others to take care of you? Why don't you have the career or calling God wants for you? You also see yourself comparing others to yourself. Looking at Social Media to see where you stand with others. Is your life better than their's you wonder, when you see their pictures of their lives and familes, vacation destinations, their careers. Then you think to youself "Is Their Life Better Than Mine"? 

I've seen so much people get engaged, married, and kids. I'm like when Lord when. I am happy for the them, but sometimes I feel I have to be real. I've been dating my boyfriend it will be two years in a couple of days. We are preparing to get married but I"ve been a little edgy when people ask: So when's the date?

Look we are doing the best we can!!! CALM DOWN!!!!! Finances have to be tight. It feels like foever. I've been getting pressured it seems like by everyone I talk to expect for one or two people. I know this is the consistant relationship I've ever really been in but please. It some issues that I still need to attake concern for.  Personal Issues. Thanks for my family they keep reminding me that my bilogical clock is running out. I need new folks. lol! 

With all this being said to always count your blessings. I should be happy I'm not married right now, because after "I Do" that's it. lol I love my boyfriend, if he'd ask me now I say yes, let's get married yesterday. I have a job that interesting, but glad I have it, Family that gets on my butt all the time, that it's very annoying, but they're there, when I need them. Even though I don't travel as often as I like too. I don't focus as much as I need too, I see others that are more focus, more together, more pretty, more fit, more fun than me. Guess what? I'm still in a GREAT PLACE!!!!!!! 

Brokenness In The Church?

Wow! Lately I've been noticing about relationships, even in the Body Of Christ. A lot has been going on with so called "Past Sins". How us as the Body of Christ judge each other knowing that we've been in their shoes or maybe worst.

Not justifying anyone, but haven't we all come short of the glory of God? I have heard about Gospel Artist Detrick Haddon leaving his ex-wife after he had an affair with a woman, got her pregnant, had a daughter and is now engaged to the child's mother. Okay!

He later revealed that his ex-wife had an affair with Issac Carree around that time, first. Okay! Does two wrongs make it right? I don't think so. Not saying no one makes mistakes. I can't judge any of them cause I myself have done a good amount of dirt, that Christians can easily say Girl, you are a hot mess!

Can't we let God put back together broken relationships (especially towards) marriages? For example Tye Tribbet cheated on his wife, because he found out this his wife cheated on him with Da Truth. Tye decided to work things out with his wife, well according to my understanding. He could have took the easy way out, but he remembered his covenant that he had with God between him and his wife. He took a break to get it right, get it tight! I respect him to this day because he didn't give up.

Relationships are hard with in themselves. Being an example to the Ministry or in the Body Of Christ is even harder. Why we put people in the Church Leadership on this high pedestal? We expect Christian Ministers such as Singers and Preachers to have their act together at all times. When they fall we become disappointed. (Psalms 118:8)

Of course God wants us to be Holy, Righteous, and full of integrity. What did Jesus die for if He knew we wouldn't make mistakes? People! I John 1:9 is there for a reason, but not to justify our sins but I cleanse us from sin.

That's why Mercy exists and it goes with Goodness and Grace. That's why we are saved by grace though faith not by works. (Ephesians 2:8) God's Grace is better than any judgemental person that make you feel bad about your "Past Mistakes".

Body Of Christ we need to do better about praying for each other. Remember that if you put God first in your relationship, the rest will be like butter baby!!!!

The Christmas Stress Out!

Well, Christmas will be in 5 days. Retailers are stuffing Christmas down our throats every 5 mins.,even though you told yourself you would shop all crazy this year, but you still went into more debt trying to buy that perfect gift.

It seems like you think about what's happening in your life, or what has happened in your life this year. It was a struggle for you this year. Satan kept picking at you this year. Especially in the financial area.

Maybe you've been concern about the Historical Head Line News that's has happened thinking is this going to get any better or any worse?

How can I trust God with all of this happening? Will the world end this year? What is this world coming too? Why do we put so much pressure in Christmas when it's suppose to be the most wonderful time of the year, when it's the most stressful time?

Always stick to the Source. God!!! Well, first of all the world didn't end. It didn't even shake. Also you can't rely on people to make you happy. You will die unhappy just to please people. So if they don't like their gifts for Christmas tell them to buy their own!!!!!

We go all out to please others sometime when they are hard to please. 90% of my family members are hard to even speak to sometimes, let alone please.

Strength is the focus for the end of this year going into 2013. Be strong in the Lord and on the power of His might. (Ephesians 6:10) So May You Have A Merry Christmas and A Happy 2013!!!!!

The Relationship!!!!

Now I can say that I've been dating someone for 7 months now. It's still feels like we've been together for 3 weeks. I've loved before so I thought but I can say that I never knew a love like this.

I guess I feel that we are similar but not totally alike. We've been honest with each other from the beginning. I think that I've matured since my last relationship. I done some stupid stuff in the pass. I've learn not to make those same mistakes that I did back than.

This was the first time I actually waited for God to have Him choose me. Proverbs 18:22 says Who so finds a wife finds a good thing, and obtain favor of The Lord.

Single Ladies, Sometimes we want to pick our own mates without God's help. Sometimes you think if a guy talks to you for more than 10mins and if he's fine than he's the one for you.

We all know the we've thought Boaz showed up and it turned out to be Bozo. We've done the Beat Our Faces with Make Up and put on the figure flattering clothes, and put on the hottest and highest platform heels and boots ever and sit cause we couldn't even walk to attract that certain man. Don't get me wrong I will still put that make up on and strut in those heels now. Lol

Have you ever thought about focusing your time with God? He is your first husband and priority. 1 Corinthians 7:34

I remember about around this time last year. I was wondering why I didn't have anyone or any money? I ask God Why? He said you stopped putting me first I ask you to serve, and you haven't, also you are always looking for some guy and you stopped looking for me.

So I fully repented and told him that I would serve Him and focus on Him. I joined the choir and the youth department than I stopped looking for guys. Than one day at choir rehearsal this guy. Who I've known off and in for years invited me to his birthday party. I told him I would come if I had a ride there. He said he could pick me up. After the party was over he took me home, it was raining outside so we both wanted to wait until the sky was clear. We ended up talking for hours we learned that we had to much in common! The rest was history.

Did my Beau find his wife? Well, he said he did. He said it than that's it of course by faith. There's a lot to learn about each other, growing and understanding! So far I'm loving the journey.

I can't wait to find more to what's in store.